and then our exile

They say it will be 6 degrees today. We saw the chinook-arch yesterday, but still: ^_^

Usman is the most beautiful child.

Last night: filled with dreams that were not dreams as much as visions of inevitable scenarios, assuming I continue down this same path. Filled with everybody--FM, ZK, N, MS, MS, EH, MI, LC, M, D, S... my interactions with them as a clear picture of foul. Dreams are from God, as is all. But these were unambiguous, plain and clear for all to see without any need for interpretation: I should hang my head, retreat from the world in silent shame, and devote my all to what is Good.

And as for this glob, as of now i shall iA utilize it less for rambling and more for the advancement of that which is Real.
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"Abu Bakr Al-Kattânî said, “An issue concerning love (mahabbah) came up in Makkah during the days of the Pilgrimage. The sheikhs spoke on the matter. Junayd was present and he was the youngest amongst them. So they said to him, ‘Give us what you have O Iraqi!’ He lowered his head in humility and his eyes shed tears, and he spoke: ‘(How great is) a slave who has left himself, connected to the dhikr of his Lord, upholding His rights, witnessing Him with his heart. The lights of His Essence have burned his heart and his drink is pure from the cup of His pure Love. If such a one speaks, it is by God. If he utters [anything], it is from God. If he moves, it is by the command of God. If he remains silent, he is with God. So he is by God, for God and with God.’ So the sheikhs cried and said, “There is nothing that can be added to this. May God rectify you, O Tâj Al-‘ârifîn (crown of those who know God)!”"
[i am quite sure the translators messed up on "rectify"--should instead be "honour" or "beatify" or something of that nature]

"In summary, the life of the heart is with God and there is no life for it without that, ever. So when the heart is in agreement with the tongue in its dhikr (remembrance of God) and the heart is in agreement with what the Beloved wants from it; when he (the servant) belittles the many works and statements that he has made and regards even God’s subtle[st] generosity and kindness as great; when he embraces obedience and leaves off disobedience, and has left all of it for the sake of his Beloved, so that nothing of it remains; when his heart has become full with reverence, awe, preference and pleasure in Him and his patience in yearning for Him has reached its last straw; when he cannot find repose except in His remembrance, desire for Him and yearning for the meeting with Him; when he cannot find (true) intimacy except in His dhikr, while maintaining His ordinances and preferring Him to others…Then this, this is the true Lover (muhibb)."

[both from www.clearguidance.com]